I'm a first time poster, seeking help, advice and for someone to listen without judgement.
Im at my absolute wits end. I live with my mother and sister. Last year on Christmas Eve my mother out of the blue developed a psychosis. Since then, we have only had two months of normality.
She constantly thinks someone's always watching her, putting stuff in the water, spraying the dogs with chemicals, and that our neighbours are conspiring against her. She's spent 5 grand on cameras and alarms (that she constantly sets off) and thousands on vet bills. All our fans in our house are covered, and curtains are kept closed on most days. You cannot physically Maintain a normal conversation with her without her talking about her hallucinations etc.
I'm trying to help her alone. Her behaviour and irritational thinking has pushed a lot of people away. Even the guy who installed our cameras won't message her back. She has absolutely no insight and won't accept help.
Police have been here more times then I can count. She was taking photos on a camera for a while saying people were hanging in ropes and harness.
I have tried everything under the sun and I'm exhausted mentally and physically. I have tried to make her challenge her thoughts, I have tried ignoring and diverting. I thought it would have settled but it hasn't. Mental health team were involved, but because she wouldn't accept help they couldn't do anything.. only a involuntarily order. But I don't want to be the bad guy. I Am not sure what has caused it, however she admitted she uses ice 'on occasions'.
I feel like I'm grieving the loss of my mum and best friend without losing her? She's a different person.
I have spoken with GP, and was diagnosed with anxiety and depression. However couldn't afford to see a psychiatrist due to not working because I was constantly being woken up in the middle of the night by my mum.
For anyone out there, how did you cope with similar? did they magically wake up one day and it was over? Did you do anything to help that wake up?
Please tell me I'm not alone, and that I'm not the only one that's experienced this.
I need help.
I'm so ashamed to tell anyone, and those I have told just turn there back on me (as anyone would!)