Hi and welcome, @Bernard1 , it's good you've joined. 🙂
Do you think you might suffer from depression?
If so, there is help available. You can go to your GP and get a referral for a Mental Health Care Plan, which entitles you to up to 20 subsidised sessions with a psychologist per year. Your GP can also prescribe medication.
@Bernard1 wrote:
What do i do?
If you don't want to go down that path, you could maybe try volunteering somewhere? Like, at a library if you are good at technology, walking shelter dogs if you like dogs, with Habitat for Humanity if you are practical with your hands, etc. I've found that volunteering gives me purpose, makes me feel competent and needed, and I've made friends that way.
(The library idea: at my local library, there's a young man who offers technology help. There's a lot of older or middle-aged people like me who aren't good with technology. He offers free tech help with whatever you're struggling with, laptops, social media, mobile phones or whatever, and he's a lifesaver.)
Either way, I hope that you can find a way to start feeling better, and that you have some purpose and value (which you do!).
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