Warning this could be triggering.
So things haven't been going right for me for a long time. Today a psychotic episode was triggered by a DV situation next door. This is a regular occurrence, and the police and ambulance have been called to that place many times before. Without going into specifics, I was triggered by the screaming and the sound of walls being hit. I eventually snapped and went off at them; apart from whatever happened to them, the police got the ambulance to take me away because I was clearly unwell and had self-inflicted wounds. This had come at the tale of a weekend where I had hourly baths in domestic disinfectant and long showers. As well as trying to clean the house, I had been obsessed with the idea that I was spiritually unclean and needed to be fully cleansed. Anyway, I have the services that were on their way to being put in place brought forward now, and I should have the help I desperately need. It has to get better, and I have faith that it will.