Not sure where to start or how to articulate the problems but I think I list the main points
About Me:
In my 40s, been married for 20years and father to two boys aged 2 & 11 who I love dearly.
I have has mental health issues for at least 10years. Been to see many mental heatlh professionals over that time, but ultimatey nothing has really improved.
My eldest son has behavoural issues and its driving a wedge between all of us. His homelife is not a happy one and I feel I have failed him.
My family life is breaking down, and no matter how hard I try to maintain a positive approach, things just never seems to go right.
My wife finds fault in everything I do and my I feel im losing my connection with my oldest child.
To top if off, Ive was hit with a cancer diagnosis 9 months ago. Whilst treatment has been positive, I havent had the time to really reflect on the experience, to be honest, im so numb, i have almost no feelings postive or negtive about the experience .
Im at the point were im "broken" and alone with no idea on what to do and no one to turn to.
Im hoping someone can recommend something other than just appointments with counsellors as this just seems to go nowhere.