23-07-2016 02:55 PM
23-07-2016 02:55 PM
Whatever! What a stupid title, but thats how I feel. My head is a jumble of thoughts. I dont know where to begin. I just want to cry all the time. My family doesnt understand how bad I feel. I just make them miserable. I dont want to have a victim mentality but cant seem to make myself better. I havent always felt this way. Only in the past year or so. I cant seem to function properly and drink all the time but that (of course) doesnt help. I try to stop and can last only a week. Im on antidepressants but they dont seem to be working either. I put it down to menopause and no thyroid, but that excuse is wearing thin. Doesnt help that mental illness runs in the family. I try to go for long walks, learn the piano, do yoga, eat crap though. But i cant be bothered doing that any more. My ballooning weight is getting me down. I just want to be the vibrant me I used to be. I look to the future but dont see any. My husband has Parkinsons, and I need to be strong for him, but find it increasingly harder. My children and grandchildren need me to be strong. They depend on my strength but I just dont have any, anymore...... Sorry for the rant. I just needed to..... I dont even know if Im in the right forum. Im sure someone will tell me though...
23-07-2016 03:45 PM
23-07-2016 03:45 PM
23-07-2016 03:54 PM
23-07-2016 03:54 PM
Ive been on the antidepressents for about a year. Ive had to increase the dosage a couple of times. Im beginning to think it may be since I stopped the HRT patches about 3 months ago. It makes sense. But your right about the alcohol. I just needed someone to re-affirm it! Its just really hard to stop. Its the only thing that numbs me. Then I regret it. I will try again though. I will see my gp about the antidepressents as well. Thanks for your input.
23-07-2016 04:15 PM - edited 23-07-2016 06:05 PM
23-07-2016 04:15 PM - edited 23-07-2016 06:05 PM
Hi @Col1 Welcome. I'm fairly new on here as well. I hope that you find it helpful chatting on here, there are alot of people here that understand.
23-07-2016 04:30 PM
23-07-2016 04:30 PM
23-07-2016 05:08 PM
23-07-2016 05:08 PM
Ive seen a psychologist a couple of times. The same one but only lasted a couple of sessions. She concentrated on my giving up alcohol first so I never got to the source of the problem, why I drink in the first place. I think I know why I drink because of something that happened as a child, which the psychologist knew about but we never talked about it. I tried to see someone else. Four others around my area but they weren't taking new patients. I prob should try again. With the input I have had so far, all points to me going back to my gp, which I will do next week, thanks.
23-07-2016 08:00 PM
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24-07-2016 03:54 PM
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25-07-2016 12:57 AM
25-07-2016 12:57 AM
Hello @Col1
From what I read, I got that you are used to being the tower of strength with a sick husband and 2 younger generations to care for. You might have compassion fatigue. You deserve support for yourself so that you can be strong for the others and for you.
Good Luck finding a good counsellor .. and take the drinking issue seriously in a manner that makes sense to you.
regards Apple
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