Hi @Dean1990
I was going to say hope this finds you well, but bloody hell you have been through the wars!!
How are you medically, are you on the mend, and how are you coping in regards to everyday stuff. Can you physically get around. Would imagine you would qualify for some home assistance help.
Breakups are shitty and completely understand all the emotions you are going through because of it. But on the plus side you know what you did wrong , you seem to be very self aware of your actions.
Hoping that you have some friends or family that you still interact with, let them know how you are feeling, people do rally round.
Take care of yourself 🙂