Hi @BlueLady ,
It sounds like a very stressful time for all of you.
I definitely hear your dilemma about whether to stay with your son or leave him at home.
As a safe-guard, having someone around will definitely be helpful, especially if he has just come back from hospital. Even if it is a neighbour or a friend. Having someone around (even if they do not talk) can make a huge difference.
It sounds like your son is quite vulnerable at the moment. I somehow feel he wouldn't want to be leaving the house right now - this makes it even harder for you.
Do you have a hospital triage line you can call? I think it's a good idea to hear what they advise.
I recognise it is hard now. But it won't always stay this way. It's important you get the support you need.
Please take care.