Hi @alrani and welcome to the forums. I can hear that life is pretty difficult for you at the moment. Unfortunately, due to the anonymity guidelines, we are not allowed to share specific recommendations of therapists here. But you will find quite a few people with BPD and similar challenges who might be able to support you around the forums. Try entering Borderline Personality Disorder on the search bar (as I just did) and you will see a list of several threads on the topic, which are bound to have some useful tips and help you feel less alone with the challenges you are facing. Also once you find somewhere you want to join in the discussion it's good to tag the person or people you want to interact with. Just type @ and the person's name with no spaces and you will see a drop-down box where you can click on the name you want.
Tagging @Former-Member s here in case you can suggest numbers @alrani might call to get info about particular therapists in their area.
Edit: wondering if Relationships Australia https://www.relationships.org.au/what-we-do/services/counselling
would be helpful?