hi
@cantdoitaloneI have been in a similar situation. it never seems to end. ever. but you don't have to do it alone, you can talk to us here and I also encourage you to keep searching for good supports who you feel comfortable talking to offline as well.
sometimes when we are to tired to fight we have to 'float' meaning just do the basic things every day to survive, do the things you need to do to survive until you feel you can fight again