Hi @Redemptioniznow
Thanks for reaching out here - it can be so hard to battle with our own issues while also wanting to be the best we can be for our family. I hear your pain at the thought of losing them.
Have you thought of ways you can help to repair things? Such as reaching out to professionals like a counsellor or GP? You could also see if there are any support groups around drugs, that might help as well. A GP could know of some too? There are also options for family counselling. Have you tried any of these options before?
Glad you are reaching out here, your family would definately rather have you in their life but we hear how much of an uphill battle this can be. We are here for you too!