Hi and welcome, @CompletelyLost , it's good you've joined. I'm sorry to read about your hurtful situation.
I would echo everything that @Maggie said above. It's not easy, I know.
A handy forum tip is if you type @ and click on a member's name in the drop-down box, they will receive a notification that you've replied to them.
I hope you find the forums supportive. All the best, @CompletelyLost .